SmokeLong Quarterly

Share This f l Translate this page

Tripta’s Recipe: Fish Cooked in Mustard Sauce

Story by Damyanti Biswas (Read author interview) March 29, 2021

Art by Paul Bilger

My mother-in-law cooked pomfret fish in mustard sauce each Sunday.

That’s the way it had been in their family back in the remote village, she explained the first time I met her. Fish was the only delicacy they could afford. Cabbages on Monday, pumpkin on Tuesday, cauliflowers on Wednesday. I can’t remember the rest. She’d written down the recipes in a notebook. Tripta’s Treasure, it said in her running script, the only thing in the home that bore her name. Can’t find it now.

I try to recall the recipe for pomfret cooked in mustard, the shorshe jhaal, the white flesh cooked just right, not too flaky, easily peeled off the bone. The sauce not pungent, not bitter, not salty, but with hints of each. I don’t like fish, especially not fish cooked whole, the button-like eye finding mine. Mournful, accusing.

Ten dead pomfret eyes stare at me in the sink in my mother-in-law’s kitchen. I’ve never washed fish. Cold scales make me recoil.


Pomfrets have no scales, she’d said once, see how smooth? What about the fish eyes, I said, and she laughed, I’ll pluck them out for you, and did just that. I flinched. Later, she filled the empty fish eyes with sauce and when serving it on my plate said, look, no eyes. I’d watched her so many times, Sunday after Sunday, special occasions, birthdays.

I can wash and prep ten dead fish. I pick up the first, making the cut in its belly, holding my breath as I tug out its entrails and gills, squishy-ruby-red. That’s how you can tell they’re fresh. I drop the warm mess in the bin, and wash my hands in running water. Each step comes back to me, as if she’s still around. She might walk in any moment and whisper, I boiled this last night, here, since I made it in your name, you must taste some before everyone, and hold a spoon of payesh to my lips, fragrant with cardamom, each rice caramelised in cream. It takes hours of stirring to make good payesh. I’ve never made that, either.


She ate after she’d fed everyone. She’d grow upset when I forced her to sit and eat with us, or waited up with her so she wouldn’t eat at the counter, alone. My husband had his office, she explained, my children, their school and sport. This, she waved her hand around her dark kitchen, is all I know. The kitchen’s only window overlooked the high boundary wall, a few stringy half-dead creepers dangling from it.

While the pomfret marinates in turmeric and salt, I use her old mortar and pestle to grind the paste: cumin, mustard, a green chili. It must be smooth, no lumps. Lightly fry the fish, be careful with the skin. Don’t fry the paste, pour in boiling water or it will all turn bitter. Add mustard oil. The smoke will make your eyes water. That’s normal. Immediately add the fish.

In a few hours, the plate laden with all my mother-in-law’s favourite dishes will be offered at the shraddha, the final ceremony. The departed return for their last meal today, the priest walks into the kitchen and warns me as I cook. Make sure her soul is tripta, he says. It occurs to me what her name means: satiated, pleased. During the prayers, her name will ring through the home. She was always the mother (Ma, I called her). Or the elder sister (didi), the aunt (kakima, jethima, mashima), the grandmother (didathakuma). When was the last time someone called her by her name?


I’m not allowed to taste the pomfret to check the salt, because no one can touch food today before she does. The fish bubble and steam in a wok larger than any I’ve ever cooked in, mustard smell of shorshe jhaal filling the air. I wait for her to tell me they’ll turn out all right.

About the Author

Damyanti’s short fiction has been published or is forthcoming at Ambit, Litro, Puerto Del Sol, Griffith Review Australia, Pembroke magazine, Atticus Review, and other journals in the USA and UK. She serves as one of the editors of The Forge Literary Magazine. Her debut literary crime novel, You Beneath Your Skin, was published by Simon & Schuster India in autumn 2019, and optioned for TV adaptation by Endemol Shine.

About the Artist

Paul Bilger’s photography has appeared at Qarrtsiluni, Brevity, and Kompresja. His work has also been featured on music releases by Dead Voices on Air and Autistici. When not taking pictures, he is a lecturer in philosophy and film theory at Chatham University. He is the art director at SmokeLong Quarterly. 

This story appeared in Issue Seventy-One of SmokeLong Quarterly.
SmokeLong Quarterly Issue Seventy-One

Support SmokeLong Quarterly

Your donation helps writers and artists get paid for their work. If you’re enjoying what you read here, please consider donating to SmokeLong Quarterly today.

High Intensity Interval Training for Flash Writers with Ingrid Jendrzejewski

Book Now!

Bring a pen, lots of paper, and your water bottle: this is a high-intensity guided-writing work-out designed to kickstart creativity, and push you into new territory, and exercise flash muscles you didn’t even know you had.

Maybe you’re stuck in a story and looking for a way to proceed.  Maybe you’re looking to generate new ideas.  Maybe your inner editor is holding you back.  Maybe you’re in a rut or have writers’ block or are just wanting to shake things up a bit.  This session is designed to tackle all these issues and help you level up your flash fitness.  Writers of all backgrounds and experience levels warmly welcome; come along, roll up your sleeves, and trust the process.