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The Butterfly Effect

Story by Marc Joan (Read author interview) October 26, 2015

Art by Karen Prosen

“Thirty years I’ve been in San Francisco,” she said, her watery old eyes finding memories beneath the rain-pelted, sodium-yellow streetlights outside, “and I can tell you the tram’s never gone down Powell. No, it hasn’t gone that way at all since I’ve been here. This’s the first time, honey. Always used to be California Street.”

Lia glanced at the old girl’s reflection in the tram window. A weak, confused face set between a pink wooly hat and a coat far thicker than the San Francisco winter merited; dark eyes that helplessly appealed for companionship; a plastic bag overflowing with clothes and fast-food cartons; hands that continually moved their tremor from bag to collar to hat and back again. One of the other passengers said something—“You’re on the wrong line, lady, this is Powell-Mason”—but she took no notice, her mouth moving slackly and silently above her discolored coat collar as she adjusted her bobble-hat once more. Lia wondered if she should get up, but the tram was rocking about in the wind, and she didn’t want to risk a fall.

“Know the way to California Street, honey?”

Lia sighed. “Nope.”

“Ain’t from San Francisco, honey?”

“Nope. Iowa.” Home.

“Everybody knows Iowa!”

“Uh-huh.” They know farms and Des Moines; but Lia knows the limitless immensity of the prairie sky, sometimes blue as a jewel, sometimes black as Satan. The sound of the wind rushing through a thousand acres of corn on a summer’s night. Of threnodies left hanging in the tornado-dropped silence.

“They sure can farm out there!”

“Uh-huh.” They made the good earth give up its grain. They grew corn enough for an army. Until one day a storm, grown from some tiny eddy kicked up in some far-off place, twisted into Iowa and wrung the joy out of life.

“You can always tell if someone’s Iowa-born and bred … Big and strong …”

“Uh-huh.” Lia’s son was tall for a ten-year-old. He could handle a horse, even then.

“Like me, honey. Big, strong girl like me, I could have had babies one after the other … but there was just the one.”

“Uh-huh.” After the tornado had passed, Lia and the boy went outside to survey the damage. Go check the stables, she said, and the boy ran off as fast as his young legs would take him, while Lia started clearing up the branches scattered by the storm.

“Just the one, honey…that’s all…”

“Uh-huh.” She was so angry when she had to go and look for him, an hour later. But when she found him, she blanketed his cold body with kisses of incarnadine.

“Ain’t it windy, honey?”

“Uh-huh.” The horses were still spooked from the storm, they’d said. One of them had kicked out. Not your fault, Lia, they’d said. Nobody’s fault.

“Ain’t it wet?”

Strange thing: as she held him, Lia saw a small, white butterfly flap erratically away from the destruction all around, and wondered how such an insignificant scrap of life could survive, while her big, strong boy did not.

The tram shuddered to a halt.

“This ain’t California Street.”

The tram driver was from Kentucky, and still had Southern manners along with his Southern drawl. “Y’all are welcome to sit right there, ma’am—we’ll be going right back to California Street in just a little while,” he said.

But Lia got up, and gripped her bag tightly in one hand while securing her pink, wooly bobble-hat with the other. She walked carefully towards the tram door, with the shuffle of the old and weary.

About the Author

Marc Joan spent the early part of his life in Asia and Europe, and the early part of his career in biomedical research. He draws on this and other experience for his fiction, which is currently restricted to the more economical formats (short stories and novellas). Marc’s stories have been published in Hypnos, Madcap Review, Danse Macabre, The Apeiron Review, Bohemyth, and STORGY.Currently, he lives in England with his family.

About the Artist

Karen Prosen has been taking photographs for about five years now, and although she has newly branched out into various other modalities, photography will always be her most favorite and most natural way of sharing with the world. She believes photography is like being a mirror for someone, and saying, “Did you know that this is the way I see you?” It’s why she loves portraiture—the ability to turn beauty in all its forms around to show the beheld. To Karen, photography is a gift.

This story appeared in Issue Fifty of SmokeLong Quarterly.
SmokeLong Quarterly Issue Fifty

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