by Christopher M Drew November 12, 2018
The second thing I see after pulling the bedroom blind is my wife’s handprint on the casement window. The first thing I see is an alligator in the pool.
I light a cigarette and grab my phone, Google ‘difference crocodile alligator’. I’d stopped using grammar in my searches years ago. It saved a lot of time, so I decided to try it with my verbal communication as well. This was just before my wife left. I’d say things like ‘pass salt’, and ‘where keys’. She hated that, so I told her: ‘time money’. No, she said, work money.
The words between us disappeared, eventually. One day, there were none left. Not even goodbye.
This is how you can tell an alligator is an alligator:
1) Their snouts are wide and rounded.
2) They can hide their teeth.
3) They’re fast. Much faster than a crocodile.
My wife had webbed feet. I used to kiss her toes, play ‘this little piggy’ with them. I’d tell her that’s why she could swim so fast. Then she would give me that look, say, Training for two hours every day can’t hurt, either.
I open the bedroom window and look out.
How would regular people handle this situation? A normal couple. What would they do if they found a gator in the pool? They would probably panic, this couple. Hon, the man would say. Come look at this. Then they would turn to each other in disbelief. The woman would run to the nursery while the man dialed 911. They’d notify the authorities. Feature in the local newspaper. Probably call an emergency neighborhood watch meeting.
Me? I head downstairs to the kitchen and slide a knife from the block. Phone in hand, I check my messages (zero), and fire up the video app. This could go viral. Man fights alligator with 8-inch Shun. I’ll be a YouTube star. A Twitter phenomenon. People will pass me on the street and say, Hey, it’s Crocodile Dundee! That’s not a knife, that’s a knife!
I hit ‘Record’ and approach the pool. At the edge of the pool I peer over. The gator is there. It doesn’t move. I expect its eyes to shine amber or green, but when the security light catches them they glow a deep blood-red.
I’d emptied the pool the same day my wife left. After she’d gone, it was just a big hole in the ground.
I climb down the ladder and set the phone in one of the skimmers. Slipping the knife out of my belt, I step crab-like around the gator.
The pool is on a slope so that one end is five feet deep, the other eight. As I move alongside the gator, its stomach arches up and something rolls out from under its tail. A small white egg. Perfect. There are about fifty of them piled in the corner of the pool.
I kneel next to the gator and hold the flat of my palm against its pale belly. The skin is soft and I hold my hand there, counting the slow beat of its heart. As the muscles tighten, the gator blinks and a teardrop zigzags down its cheek.
That’s when I start crying. Sobbing. I can’t help it. I can’t stop. My wife said she loved that about me—my sensitivity—but she said a lot of things before she left.
I’d cry at romantic movies. At weddings. When The Winner Takes It All played on the radio, and that Budweiser Super Bowl ad—that got me every time. The one with the guy and his horse. Brotherhood.
If I’m being honest, I haven’t cried since she walked out, not even when I watched Kramer vs. Kramer, and that was guaranteed waterworks.
I lie on my back beside the gator and look into the empty sky. Stretching out my hand, I think about my wife. How she would plunge into the pool, a shadow beneath the silver water, swimming one, two, three lengths.
How I’d sit in the frame of our bedroom window with a pack of Marlboros and watch the smoke dissolve into the cold gray twilight.
How I’d wait for the moment when she’d erupt from the water, arms wide, head back, mouth open, swallowing the whole fucking world.
About the Author:
Christopher M Drew is a writer from the UK. His work has appeared in various online and print publications, including Third Point Press, Literary Orphans, and New Flash Fiction Review. He has won Second Prize in both the Bath Flash Fiction and Reflex Fiction competitions, and received nominations for Best Small Fictions in 2017 and 2018. He is an editor at FlashBack Fiction. You can connect with Chris on Twitter @cmdrew81.
About the Artist:
Maggie Taylor an artist in Gainesville, Fla. Her childhood was spent watching countless hours of situation comedies and science fiction on TV. Later, she received a philosophy degree from Yale University and a master's degree in photography from the University of Florida. Her digital composites have been widely exhibited and collected by many museums, including The Center for Creative Photography, Tucson; The George Eastman House, Rochester; Harn Museum of Art, Gainesville; Harry Ransom Center, The University of Texas; The High Museum, Atlanta; Museum of Fine Arts, Houston; Ogden Museum of Southern Art, New Orleans; The Art Museum, Princeton University; The Cleveland Museum of Art, Cleveland; The Fogg Art Museum, Harvard University; The Nelson-Atkins Museum of Art, Kansas City; and The Santa Barbara Museum of Art, Santa Barbara.